[30 Day Blog Challenge: Day 22]

NOTE: I wasn't able to post this yesterday because of issues with blogger.

Day 22 – A letter to someone who has hurt you recently.

Thankfully I am a person with really no drama in her life. The only "recent" account I can think of probably happened 3 years ago with an old friend of mine.

To the girl who has no best friends,

You know, I always thought it strange when you would answer on those Myspace surveys (because yes, it was THAT long ago) to the questions about who your best friends were. Your answer always was, "I don't have best friends." Maybe this is why our friendship was always doomed. How could I be friends with someone who was so closed off and untrusting? I don't like to be held at arms length. I don't like to feel like the only person giving in any kind of relationship.

The demise of our friendship boiled down to this: getting the brush off one to many times was not okay with me. What also was not cool was the way you chose not to own up to your shitty actions and instead tried to make me feel like I couldn't possibly understand your point of view. You should have stopped and looked at yourself before you ever began to spout your nonsense. You telling me how I had no idea just reinforced the fact for me that you truly had no idea yourself. No clue whatsoever. Flailing your arms in a sea you were drowning in. I felt sad for you because of your warped idea of how marriage and friendship existed (or, didn't exist) because you were now with child and soon to be married. I obviously had NO clue what your "new" life was like even though I was months away from getting married myself. I didn't have a clue on what it means to want to spend time with your significant other because, of course, the whole idea to you was preposterous that I would even understand. Or maybe you were just grasping at straws? You have all the experiences and I lacked them all. You knew what you were talking about and I didn't. You were right and I was wrong.

Really now?

It was a quite frustrating time for me. Of course I never wanted to lose a friend in that way but i'm not going to be a doormat and i'm not going to be that girl who is there for other people's convenience. You want to be friendless then that is your choice. I choose to surround myself with people who are worthy of the title friend. And, unlike you, I even get close enough to someone to call them my best friend. It feels great.

-A